Playing catch up!

So I now must admit to you my readers and friends if there are any of you left out there. I have been in a winter blues depression. I have tried everything and even tried to remind myself I am not at all depressed. I have overhauled the apartment every time I am home just to make myself feel accomplished. I have quit smoking. I have gone to the doctor for regular check-ups. I have been taking my vitamins and doing what I need to do or so I thought. I have missed my medications a few times (because honestly people I am clinically depressed... there I said it the cat is out of the bag). I keep thinking well I am doing things I am going out and not hiding in my home. I have been productive I have gotten my bills in order and done a whole bunch of responsible parent things. But where is the fault in all of this. Well here it is the truth.
I have been lazy about going to school and have missed far more time then I care to admit. Yes first Quin was sick, then Cas was sick, then I was sick but did I need to stay home all those days no probably not. First there was winter break which made me not want to go in and made us all have 4 day weekends. Then I extended it one day, then I decided well I don't need to go in this Friday or that Monday and sadly I have missed far more school then i care to admit. I keep saying oh I will make it up Saturday because we can do that, then Saturday comes do you think I go no I don't I go shopping I go to bring Cas to dance and run errands. I use excuses. Steve is working so I have no sitter then Steve is off so I don't want to go while he is home because I am already in school on Thursday's when he is home and don't see him very often. I then make up every excuse I can in the book. This weekend Steve was home and come to find out from now on Steve will be home every Saturday so I can make up time whenever I want but will I no. The saddest part of it is Steve sleeps the whole entire time I am in school anyway so what would be the difference. So this week I am vowing to go to school daily yes all 5 days because there is 5 days of school this week, and I would like to possibly consider going in this Saturday but one moment at a time I don't want to jump to far ahead of myself.
I am glad I was able to come clean about my hiding. I have even hidden from the blog world. Since I started school I have been busy but I have been on the computer since I am sadly never to busy for that and before I was unable to find time or topics to write about but I always found time to keep up with my friends. now I don't even seem to be doing that. So now I vow to start again I quit smoking and am doing it so now I vow to go to school no excuses, I also vow to start thinking of things to write on my blog because I enjoy the release. although I must admit I am saddened I don't have many followers but I also know I would not follow someone who never writes or offers much advice. OK that is that it is what has been going on with me and it is my catch up and I guess confession all rolled into one.

Reunion

OK first off I must say before anyone goes and analyzes this post. I am 28 years young. Did you read that keyword here is young so don't make comments. Now on to my post of course it needs a disclaimer first.

So last night I found my babysitter and went out for a night on the town Bell Blvd. first Steve and I went to this cute little lounge named Nono's it was adorable and it was nice. Not the usual hustle and bustle of Bell Blvd. which was a nice change. We went to meet up with a bunch of people from my sixth grade class. The graduating class of 1992 from my old elementary school. It was just an insane thought as most of these people I had not seen in forever almost 16 years. So we went and I walked in and recognized the couple of girls that were there right off the bat. We said hello and gave the OMG haven't seen you in years speech and the hugs and I introduced Steve to the girls and they introduced their friends. Then we sat and chatted and watched the door to wait for other former friends to walk through the door. It was a lot of fun and a good couple of hours. Definitely something I would do again as it wasn't awkward at all and that is the strangest part of the whole night. After not seeing each other for so long it was not the weird so what do we discuss how do we talk type of discussion. It was like we had known each other all these years and just wanted to catch up since last time we spoke. I had a blast seeing them and then said goodnight to go off and meet my other friend. Anyone who has kids should know when you don't get out often and you can finally not only afford to go out but have an awesome sitter who wants to be with the kids for hours you definitely take advantage so we did.

We went on to the next bar. A neighborhood bar which is normally a nice fun place to hang out. This night not so much it was karaoke and it reminded me wow I am not nearly as old as this crowd. So off we went. Of course the husband did not care to join and out they went to go back to said friends house and hang out. Got to love homebody husbands. My friend and I went back to to Lounge and had a drink and then went off to the "real" Bell Blvd. First the normal bar to hang and have a couple of drinks. Of course not I since I was the designated driver and am still responsible. After hanging out their a few hours we decided to check out a bar that has changed names more times then I can remember. Now it is a country bar, it has an electronic bull and a country theme. Complete with half naked chicks dancing on the bar. Awww man our poor husbands got to miss this. It was fun and despite being country themed they played anything but country music (which actually bummed this city girl out as I love country music). We hung out and danced and then headed back to the norm. We had a blast and it was such a fun night out. Only problem I had was once we went to the "real" Bell Blvd. I looked around only to notice I was probably one of the oldest women their. How strange since I am only 28 years young. But why did I feel so old. The men who approached us (not that I was in any way looking to be approached) were all old enough to be my father. At first I asked said friend ewww what gross guys trying to hit on us, then I heard they were only 30. Oh wow times have changed. So there are the men approximately my age trying to pick up anything that they can bring home. Then the girls trying to find the "hottest" (if that is even one of the "hip" words now a days) guy to conquer. Boy oh boy what a night.
Now I know why this Mom enjoy';s staying home with her husband reading some books playing some kids games and catching up on all my friends blogs.

So in the end I realized reunions tons of fun when you get together with the proper bunch. Going to the "real" Bell Blvd. not so much fun when you are 28 years young.

My husband rocks Friday

Because yet again he came through and brought Cas to the doctor on this freezing cold day instead of making me get dressed and freeze outside. He is the best and tomorrow he is bringing Quin to a birthday party since I am staying home with Cas. Who's husband is better then mine LOL. Just another great reason I love my husband and my husband rocks.

Now my generous wife tip I set up the coffee pot every evening to make sure Steve has hot coffee in the morning when he wakes.

Stress

So I have heard stress can kill but I didn't realize it can also make you just feel icky. I am always under stress so why would this time be any different. I went to the doctor today to discuss these horrible headaches I have been getting and she told me the cause is tension headaches. Also migraines and then told me the likely cause is stress. I quit smoking cigarette's and am coming up on a week without one and I told my doctor that. Do you think she was proud nope not that she then tells me oh cold turkey maybe you should get on the patch it will help with quitting. Ummm hello cold turkey almost a week ago why would I decide to go on the patch now. I don't even have a desire to smoke. Besides my happy pills are supposed to help with quitting smoking as well so why the sudden need for the patch. She then tells me well you would not be so sick if you took the patch and did not quit cold turkey. Go figure your body needs to wean off of the bad. I thought I did that by slowly quitting and then just going cold turkey but obviously that is not the way quitting smoking works. What a vicious cycle. So now I am on a pain patch for my tension and soon to be on a muscle relaxer. Yippee. Thank goodness it is not a dopey muscle relaxer because if it were I may cry. I cant be any dopier then I already am as of late. So tomorrow I go back to school and I feel good about that for so many reasons. One major reason being that my house is clean. well it is cleaner then it was a week ago when I had to start taking off of school for family needs and then for my own needs. I am hoping I can catch up with all that is going on in school and that this wonderful sickness did not hinder anything. OK off to do my nightly routine because of course at 9:17 at night when I should be sleeping my day is not done.

Sunday

I hope everyone is having an absolutely wonderful Sunday. Here in NY there is snow on the ground and on the cars waiting to be cleaned off. I decided today since the house is more or less clean I shall work on my car. Probably not the best day to decide this but if I don't do it now it may never get done. So I am off to go get dressed. Grabbing the camera so I can take pictures of anything pretty I may see and going to clean the exterior and interior of my car. Hope everyone else is having a wonderful day.

Help

OK so I do a few Meme's on a regular basis and I don't always remember to give credit for them in my post. So how do I put the icon thingy on hide of my blog? I learned how to cross things out so why cant I figure out this. Oh yeah and while we are at it. Can anyone tell me any other cool things to do when I post? You know the dots and hearts and such.

My husband rocks Friday

This week the reason my husband rocks is because he is an awesome father who is willing to help out. Quin has had fever for a couple of days now. Today he came to me and showed me a rash. I freaked out a bit to say the least. Steve was so calm oh that is prickly heat I used to get it all the time. So then he woke up (as he is working the night shift), and I looked online to find things that will help Quin and it says taking a bath or shower. So Steve is now giving Quin a shower, but not before he helped Cas get on her Cheetah Girl's tattoo ankle bracelet. So that is why my husband rocks. Now on to the survey Katy-Lin posted this week.

1. Where did you meet?

Working at T.G.I.Friday's

2. Who long did you date b/f you were married?

9 months

3. What does he do that surprises you?

Sometimes he will bring me home a Slurpee after work or some other snack he knows I love.

4. What is your favorite quality of his?

He is such a hard worker

5. What is your favorite feature of his?

There are a lot of favorite features. I just love looking at him.

6. Does he have a nickname for you?

nope

7. What is his favorite food?

steak and mashed potato

8. What is his favorite sport?

football

9. When and where was your first kiss?

December 24, 1999 in my Mom's apartment

10. What do you like to do together?

just being together is good. We enjoy going out to eat as well. Being home is a favorite though we both enjoy being home and watching TV, playing on the computer or playing games.

11. Do you have any children?

Two gorgeous children

12. Does he have a hidden talent?

He is an awesome baker but that isn't really hidden.

13. Who said "I love you" first?

He did New Years Eve 2000 on the phone while he was at work and I was at a club.

14. What is his favorite type of music?

He likes everything, he doesn't have a favorite he likes everything

15. What do you admire most about him?

He is such a hard worker and an amazing father and husband.

16. Do you think he will read this?

I highly doubt it

Thursday Thirteen

OK so I don't do New Years Resolutions so instead I decided to write down a list of thirteen things I am either planning to do or have done this year.

1. Keep up with the laundry
2. Keep the house clean
3. Work on weekend's on whatever is not done during the week in the house
4. Pick a room a week and make it spotless to last a month
5. Follow Flylady (kind of)
6. Quit smoking
7. Teach the kids proper cleaning habits
8. Load and unload the dishwasher daily
9. Try not to leave any dishes in the sink overnight (which is hard as Steve comes home and eats after I go to bed)
10. Pre-make coffee nightly for the next day
11. Get the smell of smoke out of my home
12. Finish School
13. Get a job

MHR- Friday

My husband rocks because he is always thinking of ways to improve for our family. Last night he came home from work and I was half asleep. He came in and our conversation sounded like this...

Him: Hi!
Me: Hey hun what's up
Him: Know what I was thinking
Me: That you love me
Him: No besides that
Me: Well what?
Him: I was thinking I want to go back to school....
Me: For what
Him: Culinary
Me: Oh OK (wow that was harsh what a wonderful wife, I guess I should have been a bit more enthused as I said that), for what exactly cooking, to be a chef?? For baking??? You will still work nights as a chef and such
Him: Baking, then I can work early in the morning and open my own bakery
Me: Oh OK (there it goes again)
Him: Only bad thing is between working and going to school I will sacrifice seeing you guys a lot.
Me: That's gonna stink...

Well then I thought about it and we discussed it more this morning and he has since told me he wants to go in September. Since in April I will be graduating school (god willing) I am hoping to get a job immediately and if I can I am also hoping to be making good money. So I made a suggestion of Steve possibly working part time and me working full time and him going to school and then we will all be able to see each other every so often. Wow what a year 2008 has been me going back to school and Steve's revelation to go to school. But see this is exactly why my husband rocks. He knows in order to get out of the job he is in with this rough economy the only way to do so is to go back to school. Now the thing is he hates school but he loves baking so I am hopeful that Steve's plan can go through and he can go back to school and be the wonderful man that he wants to be. As he already is a wonderful husband and father.

Thirteen Thursday

Thirteen things I learned/ did/ accomplished in 2008!

1. I can do anything I put my mind too.
2. Work is a lot of fun.
3. Being away from your kids after being home for almost 8 years is so very healthy.
4. Being an adult with children can be so much fun.
5. I learned I love photography.
6. My job cutting back my hours motivated me to go back to school.
7. After almost 10 years I went back to school which is huge for me.
8. I am earning wonderful grades in school which I am so proud of.
9. I am a NERD.
10. I am an amazing hairstylist.
11. I love hair coloring.
12. Keeping a clean house when not in it is very hard work. I always though being away from home would be easier to keep it clean but it just doesn't work that way for some reason.
13. Being an adult and bringing your children to Disney World is more fun then being a kid and going to Disney World. Being able to be a kid despite being an adult and seeing things through your children's eye's is just amazing.

Happy New Year

I have not been on in a while but I just wanted to wish everyone a Happy new Year. I hope everyone is enjoying their holiday season. I am trying hard to. A lot has happened in 2008 and I am sure a lot more will happen in 2009 but I am up for the challenge. Wishing everyone a Happy and Healthy 2009!