Not me Monday and then Some.

So this week I must tell you I did not get even more baby obsessed and take countless more tests only being impatient for my lovely friend to show up.

I also did not leave my daughter sitting at home while I brought her brother to the park just to teach her a lesson. Only to call her and tell her to get her butt outside as I did not want her home alone. Nope not me what rational mother would do that.

I definitely did not yell at my husband that he is horrible and mean and not nice just because he wouldn't get dressed to go get me an ice cream I was craving. I would never do that because I am always rational and being as he was relaxing I would not expect him to go out for me. I did however go on my own only to get home and find out the dummy's at the ice cream store made me the wrong ice cream and my craving is still here.

I did not get into another fight with a friend who always seems to take her stresses out on me and swear up and down I would never talk to her again for the millionth time only to start talking to her two days later. Nope again not irrational me.

I think I definitely need to go back to the doctor and get back on some meds because the rational me would never do any of that. Sadly depression runs in the family and with trying to have a baby I thought I should stop taking my meds and go to the doctor when I find out I am pregnant so I can get on baby approved meds. Well I guess I should just cave and go back on them because rational me would never allow me to do anything of those things mentioned above.

Now for the then some I am thrilled because yesterday I bought a Zoo pass and cant wait to go constantly and have all these lovely things to do with the kids this summer. The beach pass and the Zoo pass will give us tons of "free" things to do this summer as luckily the beach nor the zoo will cost us anything if we choose to pack lunch. Now we are looking into inexpensive vacations since we are not going on one this summer and Steve has vacation time to use. We discussed a stay-cation which I have been reading a lot about online and it sounds like it could be fun. But I also want to go camping this summer if we are lucky enough to find all the equipment we need.

So there it is my not me Monday and then some random stuff. So how was every one's weekend. We had a wonderful dance recital both kids did great only to be followed by another horrible restaurant experience that we will never do again but the food was good the staff just stunk. Kids just don't work anymore. I remember being much more responsible. Maybe I caught them on an off night.

Good Saturday Afternoon

So I am up and I am exhausted. I don't know why I am sleeping so much. I stayed up way to late last night watching movies with the kids. First we watched Artificial Intelligence. Cas kept walking away but by the end she liked it. Quin was such a trooper he tried falling asleep an hour before it ended I told him come on Boo one more hour you can do it (this was his second attempt at the movie and he loves it because a Robot boy and his Teddy what is not to love). But needless to say a half hour later I turned around he said Mommy I am done good night love you. Just as quickly as he said it he was out cold. Cas on the other hand lasted all night. She finished the movie and then we watched some TV. I then decided No Reservations was a good movie to watch. I don't know why I do it to myself. I should have gone to sleep but no I stayed up watching a second movie. Way to much for my body.

In the midst of all of this I got my monthly friend. I was quite upset I must admit but Steve played it off very well. Oh well another month. I guess trying truly does prevent you from getting pregnant. I have never tried and always received my surprising little miracles. Now I plan and try and it just didn't happen. I guess I should stop trying so to speak and let life take it's course. I definitely need to admit I need some support with this one because I am beyond baby fever. More like baby obsessed which is totally stopping the process I assume. So there i admitted it again and again. I am Carri and I am baby obsessed. Admitting it is the first process. Now on to the second.

So also going on today is the kids dance recital. Such fun I truly do enjoy sitting through the two hour recital to watch my children perform 5 minutes each Truly no sarcasm here. Each year we rush to our seats and check to program. Figure out when the kids are up and look over the recital to see when our favorite classes are dancing. We sit through a solo or two and we laugh and enjoy. Then it is our kids up and I tear up and am so proud and then analyze everything they did up on stage. I know bad Mom but I never tell them how truly terrible they are at the recital. I must admit after dress rehearsal this passed week I did ask Cas if she even enjoyed tap dancing because it was not her stronger dance of the two and considering she had her teacher there to show her the steps I was a bit confused. She just said it was the harder of the two and I must admit she is right I cant imagine shuffling my feel like that. This recital is a late recital we have never had that before. It is a bit strange to say the least. I am not used to 6 p.m. recitals. So this year I am debating bringing them out to dinner before the recital so we are not hungry or cranky during the recital. Cranky kids on stage are never a good thing. Maybe a late lunch early dinner and then some kick butt dessert after. Not sure but we will figure out something.

I hope everyone has a wonderful day doing whatever is in your plans. I need to motivate and start enjoying my day. Hmmmm what to do first, definitely not clean LOL.

MHR- Friday

My husband rocks. This week is pretty simple my husband rocks because he has been helping out around the house and not complaining. I am home once again and I said I would pick up the slack once I am home again and I started to in the beginning but now I am back to taking naps. I don't know why maybe it is PMS maybe it is my new schedule but naps are a daily occurrence and I can not make it through a day without napping. Luckily my husband has been around and picking up the slack when I nap and I greatly appreciate it because I need my sleep. I hope to get over this napping phase quickly.

Blog Makeover Block

So I am looking into redoing my blog giving it a face lift of sorts. I was told by some people keep it simple nobody wants to visit a blog that takes forever to load. Other's said go all out customize colorize make it match the bedroom, living room, heart and soul. OK maybe not all that but you get my drift I hope. So I was looking around and nothing seems to say hey pick me pick me. I wish it did because I am not a shopper I go I look and if something doesn't say pick me pick me then I walk away or pick the most plain thing I can find just to say there I shopped and it will last forever. I don't like shopping in general so what would make me think that blog dress shopping would be much easier. I am the type I want something that will last longer then the summer Maybe I am wrong maybe it is good to give a face lift every couple of weeks or months but I am a classic type of girl. I find it I like it and if someone doesn't come back to my blog due to it's look well then sorry their loss. I have plenty of other reasons to keep you away that don't include the look of the place. So anyway now that I have rambled... I need some help I need to find a place to go that will show me blog layouts and are simple and classic and don't have all the different colors and funny cartoon characters because quite frankly that is not me my heart or soul. I like to have a splash of color in a pretty plain looking room. To me that says look at me.

Last Day of Freedom for me

So today is the kids last full day in school. For some reason the school gives half days for the last week of school. Maybe the kids are thrilled with this idea but as a parent it royally stinks. I mean who wants to drop the kid off at 8 something only to have to retrieve them at 11:30. It is like having the kids back in pre-k but of course I must be grateful because I don't have to go back and get other child at the end of the school day. See there is a positive to this situation.

Then with these half days comes the fun of the end of the year recorder concert which is tomorrow. Now don't get me wrong I love watching my child up on stage with the rest of her uniformed class playing instruments and every year getting better and better but to be quite honest I get migraines and I am still waiting for the better and better years. I cant help it I almost come to tears watching them with their huge milestone because it marks another year of schooling down as well as another year of recorder done but it also reminds me why the recorder stays in school. I think all parents should give the band/ music teacher in their school the best gift because lets be honest we have to hear this music at the end of the year when they have practiced and if it sounds like this now I wonder how it sounded before they practiced.

Yet more end of the year fun. Dance recitals now this I must admit I love. We went this past Saturday to Cas' drama recital concert it was wonderful again the tears almost came and I was the emotional Mommy. Now I must ask am I the only Mom that comes to tears just because my child is on stage before they even doing anything? I know I am the emotional one in the family but sometimes I even get upset with myself. Yesterday we have the recital dress rehearsal. So cute but again my loving daughter reminded me that she does not know her dance. She had a rough year and she busted her butt, but boy oh boy those tap moves are difficult. I recorded their performances in hopes of showing it to everyone but I haven't figured out how to do that yet so please bear with me.

So here it is my full last day (well now hour of that day) left of school then tomorrow they get dropped off at 8 then the recorder concert at 9:30 then back to pick them up at 11:30. Don't be to jealous of my fun day. At least I have Saturday to look forward to when I get to sit through an amateur performance of the nutcracker and 15 different hip hop dances to Swagger.

Little Blog Update

So I read the "rules" of making a good blog and first up was looks. So there I went changing things around. Since I am a lefty I decided to put my sidebar on the left to show a bit about me. I also changed the colors and fonts. I wish I know how to make a cool header but step by step eventually I will get there. So now I need some constructive criticism. Who better to do it then the people who visit my blog. So according to the post I read I need a sticky blog. So is my blog stick enough? Is this a blog you find interesting? even if it is something about the writing criticize people. We all need to be able to take some criticism and here I am asking for it. I am all for improving myself and my blog.

Not Me Monday

I see everyone else doing this meme so I figure I will give it a shot and maybe by me doing some I will remember to get back in the swing of blogging. So here is my first attempt of my not me Monday.

I did not go out Friday and Saturday night this week pretending to have a life. But boy did I have fun not doing it.

I did not take 4 pregnancy tests this week even knowing I was not expecting my monthly friend till this coming Saturday and it was far to soon.

I did not pay to go out with friends in hopes of being paid back immediately only to not be paid back yet.

I did not text said friend and say thing to said friend and get no response.

I did not decide I don't think I want this friend anymore.

Have I mentioned I did not take 4 pregnancy tests this passed week. The would also explain why I have not been an emotional wreck.

I did go with my family to see the movie Up but I most certainly did not cry throughout more than half of it. That would be silly and embarrassing and probably be super hormonal since everyone else I spoke to who has seen it has said yes it was sad but crying throughout all of it is a bit much. So you know I didn't not come out with red puffy eyes.

So there was my first not me Monday I hope it went well. I know I enjoyed thinking of all the things I did not do this week.

I'm back!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I am back, did you miss me. OK let's update everyone. First off school kicked my butt and let me know that it had other plans for me. I missed a few days and had a few issues and due to life 9 weeks took a lot longer but oh well that is like. Point is I AM DONE. I still have to go get my form's filled out by the doctor and I have to go to the city and take the test but I am done with school. I am thrilled I cant believe I did it but I did. Sadly I don't feel like I have made a huge accomplishment but so be it. I am thrilled that I am done and that I can say I finally finished what I started in 1999. Yes people you read that right I started school in 1999 and years and years later I finished. But that is OK because it is done.

Since I have finished school life has changed a bit and yet it hasn't even been two whole weeks. With much consideration and thinking and talking amongst other things we have decided we are going to go for baby number three. Yes me the woman who swore I was done having children and the two I had were more then enough and then I guess someone higher then ourselves spoke and we have decided a third baby would fit in this place perfectly. Of course not space wise but that will happen in time, we cant have everything at once. I am thrilled and scared and can't believe that we are trying for another. I pray it happens and every day I swear I have symptoms and are pregnant but I also can not know for a few more weeks. I must be patient and in time I will know if God has the same plans my husband and I do.

So those are two huge things in my life. I am adjusting back to being a stay at home Mom and as bored as I can be some days I wouldn't trade it in for the world. I wish stay at home Mom's got paid because I could do this for the rest of my life. I find it funny I went to school and love what I went for but I also love more then anything being home with my kids. I dislike cooking but I enjoy watching them eat what I make for dinner. I dislike cleaning constantly especially when the place doesn't look like it has been cleaned but I love the feeling of knowing I have accomplished something that even though it may not look done I know that I did. I love being home with my kids again and fighting them to do homework and pushing them to study for finals and almost going bald because some times they make me want to rip my hair out of my head. But at least now I know how to make a great wig to cover the bald spots. I just love everything about being home again. I cant wait for summer when they are home to drive me completely insane and when I have no choice but to dye my hair because it is grey from the wonderful stress my kids have given me.

So here I am people I am back. I hope someone missed me and I hope to see everyone again soon and be a good blogger once again.