Not Me Monday

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This week I did not allow my kids to wear jeans for the holidays and Quin wore a t-shirt. Nope not me I do not allow my kids to dress down for the holidays they must always be dressed nicely.

I also did not force my kids to re-take pictures for Christmas cards because the first set we ordered came out badly. I mean come on now it is the thought that counts not having perfect cards right.

I also did not allow my kids to eat candy apples past their bedtime because I felt like it, come on now especially not during a school night because that would just be so irresponsible so I did NOT do that.

I then did not endulge on my own candy apple, I mean the kid and hubby made them so I had to try. I mean No nope I definitely did not have to try I just looked and allowed the kids to enjoy.

I also did not tell hubby how horrible the food for Thanksgiving was and get very upset. I love to eat and all but spending time with family is so much more important than the food. Oh heck I need to fight this one the food on Thanksgiving is very darn important their I said it.

When school picture's came home today I did not opt to keep Big Boy's picture's despite him hiding his lips in the pictures. Come on now what type of Mom decides it is the least of all evil's that could of happened and keep the pictures.

So that was all the things I definitely did not do this week. I am being a good girl and pledging to be better so I would not do any of those things.

Six words Saturday

This is my first time ever participating but it sounded like fun. So here goes nothing. Go over to showmyface for more Six words saturdays.


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My Husband Rocks Friday

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This week my husband rocks because he deals with me. I know I am not an easy woman to deal with. I am on med's that I sometimes forget to take. I tend to be overbearing on a regular basis. I am a total control freak. I want things my way all the time. Everything including his drawers. I'll never forget watching one of ym stupid reality shows one day a long time ago and the guy said he would never date a woman with depression. He couldn't handle it. Then another guy said the same thing and I thought ugh whatever who would date them anyway. I then sat and though please so many woman take meds and are depressed and who cares what those reality show moron's think anyway. Well then it got me thinking what would keep you from dating someone? I mean do you ask simple questions like do you have depression on a first date. Then years later we found out our daughter could be bi-polar. (I say could because we are having he re-evaluated to make sure since she is so young to be diagnosed bi-polar.) So anyway then it brought me back to what those moron's said and now it made sense. Exactly why some guys would not date a woman who is depressed or on meds. It all makes sense, but my husband he deals on a daily basis with me and my illness and usually does not throw it in my face. Hey we are human and during arguments sometimes a low blow fly's we are not the "perfect couple", but for the most part he always supports me and my illness and he deals better than I can most day. Just another reason why my husband rocks.

Thankgiving Thursday

As in Thanksgiving passed this year we did the same thing we have done every year since we have been married. We went to my in-laws. This year was quite different as my father in law was not there to celebrate with us. My Mother-in-law was having her own sad holiday as it was the first without him but she stayed strong. Only difference was she did not cook and OMG did I miss her cooking. Dinner was horrible. To say the least. I am grateful we had food but I am also grateful that I know how to cook and will be making a Thanksgiving dinner sometime soon for my family.  I can't wait to see what the future holds. With our plans t move I wonder if next year we will spend the holidays with Steve's family again. If we even move by then as we plan to do. It is all a mystery and I cant wait to see what things come our way. Thus year we have tons to be grateful for and I plan on staying grateful forever no matter what life throws my way. I think even the worst of situations could be worse and I plan to look on the bright side at all times. Mind you peopel I said plan so dont hold me to it I am only human. This year though I am grateful to have my husband's family to spend the holidays with. Over the years it has gotten better and that is a great thing. We have become more of a family and we have all learned to get along despite our many difference's. What are you all grateful for?

Works for me Wednesday

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OK this is going to sounds very weird but today I used a stridex pad on mine and Big Girl's face today and when I was done I went to throw it int he garbade (I dont keep one in the bathroom), well there was stickyness on the floor in front of the garbage door. I decided hmmmmm have wet pads in my hand let's try to clean it. I went and tried to clean it up and it wiped right up no scrubbing no nothing.  I think from now on if I have a sticky situation a stridex pad may help so in case of stickyness use a stridex pad.

Not me Monday

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This week I did not put up my Christmas tree, on Friday to be exact and then decorate for Christmas before Thanksgiving even happened. I guess who cares nobody comes here for Thanksgiving anyway.

We also did not find out that our plans to move have changed, it totally upset us but we will roll with the punches so to speak and now we are looking to go to Florida. I have always wanted to move to Florida, it is warm. Year round well kind of.

I did not allow my children to go out on a school night and then afterwards bring them even further from home just to get a huge leaf for my son for his science project. Seriously huge bigger then his head, my head, it could cover a basketball. Boy oh boy why didn't I get a picture of it.

My laminated list

I have seen quite a bit of woman making their laminated list and decided to follow suit. It is the list we make that we get a free pass that if we meet these celebrities we get a free pass to you know.....

So here is my list...

1. Ryan Reynolds

2. Vin Deisel

3.Paul Walker

4. Channing Tatum

5. Steve Howey

Almost all shirtless, all in my dreams. Oh yummy. Trust me there are more but I dont want to be greedy now. So go for it who are your 5 or 6 or 10 or even 20?

12 years today

Just want to see today is 12 years since my Dad passed away. He was my step-Dad technically but he was the only Dad I ever know other then my Grandfather. I only had him for 7 short years but they were amazing years. Twelve years ago today I got a call that my Dad had died in St. Lucia while on a second honeymoon with my Mom. I was cutting school and with my boyfriend at the time. It was horrible. I couldn't believe it and I was a complete mess. Somehow we made it through though and it made my Mom and I closer because of it. He was my Dad and I will miss him forever. I got him from the age of 10-17 and it was not nearly eough time. I wish I had a blog back then to look back at the meories we shared. It saddens me because as much as I hate to say this. I forget things about him all the time. I know the love will always be there as will the pictures but sadly in my scattered medicated brain I have lost him over the years. Has anyone else gone through this and how do you cope?

My Husband Rocks Saturday

OK so this week I am a bit late, but it is OK because no matter what day it is my husband still rocks and this certain incident happened at 10:30 last night (Friday) so had I not waited I could not share this exact reason why my husband rocks. Head on over to Katy-Lin to see more of My Husband Rocks Fridays.

So last night my best friend and her husband (who happens to be my husband's best friend also).. (BTW how juvenile is it to call someone your best friend as an adult?!?) had a wedding to go to. Just remember that.

Big girl and I went to see New Moon and DH brought Big Boy to work because he rocks like that. Reason #1. He brought Big Boy to work so I could spend quality time with Big Girl.

After the movie I came home and our Christmas tree was up (totally a week early but whatever) DH was in the spirit and it is always pretty to see a lit tree at night so one more week wont kill us. Reason #2 my husband rocks, he makes sure to keep us all in holiday spirit even when we dont want to be.

Hubby took pictures of the kids afterwards for our Christmas cards. Woohoo reason #3. Hey it's the little things.

Now the big one reason #4! Best friend called me at 10:30 when I knew wedding was not over. She said we are on the way home and her hubby had cut his finger horribly doing something stupid. We both chuckled because it is so her husband to do something like this. We BS'ed on the phone for a lot of their drive home and giggled as did he in the background. We made plans to go out when she got home. All seemed well. Well we got off the phone they went to the drug store to get bandages and she calls my hubby up. OMG come help him I cant do it, it is horrible ewww yuck girly girly squeals. My hubby springs into action and calls our sitter which happens to be best friends little brother. So my hubby gets babysitter and I tell him leave and go help. I will meet him when the sitter comes over. The sitter comes and I walk over (she livves right up the block total perk ). I go to her house and hear squeals of a woman. I ring the bell and best friend answers. Her husband is the screaming little girl. My husband is trying to play doctor. So he bandages him up and we finally convince him an hour later to go to the hospital. It was pretty darn bad. So my hubby bring's her hubby to the hospital. He stayed for 3 hours in the E.R. and staying where ever he went and keeping us all updated. Come on now tell me that is not a hubby that rocks.

I must also add he babysat my childhood best friends daughter Monday while her and I went shopping reason #5 come on people can he get any better?!? I know I kno I am truly blessed. Besides I knew he did it to not have to go shopping but while watching her and our own kids as well (not that I think a Dad staying with his kid is watching them but just saying my kids were also home), he baked cupcakes and designed them with the kids and also made dinner and a good dinner at that and fed them all. BTW the fab dinner was meatloaf, blue mashed potatoes (as requested by the guest), roasted potatoes and corn. OMG delicious and he even waited for me to get home to eat.

I love my husband and thanks for readin this much girls but this eek my husband rocks. Not that he doesnt rock every week but this week I could just think of many more reasons why he rocks.

Thursday Thirteen

This week my thoughts are....

1. Video professor sucks as company, as customer service, as everything but a con artist. They have my money and wont give it back Agh!!!!
2. TDBank is no help until my husband calls then all of a sudden they want to help.
3. When a customer service center tells you a manager or supervisor will call you back, chances are they just want to get you off the phone.
4. My cosmetology written exam is Monday yes this Monday.
5. I have only started to review today agh WTH I yell at my kids for waiting till last minute and here is procrastination at it's best. Shhh dont tell my kids.
6. I took the first review exam and got 71 out of 100 correct and think I can now get more correct.
7. On to review exam test 2 tomorrow.
8. I have wonderful friends who help destress me
9 I have had more guy friends in my life than girlfriends and I am completely OK with it.
10. I hate that my husband has more girl friends than guy friends.
11. Jealous much (bad habit I know)
12. I need to gain confidence.
13. I am a Debbie Downer and I hate it. I check out my blog and facebook posts and it sometimes seems so down. Problem yes. Solution get new meds. There I said it I am depressed, you dont think you have a bi-polar child from no family history of depression or something of the sort. I guess after the test I should probably call my doctor and find out what the next med she can put me on may be because it is obvious these are not working.

More to come tomorrow and hopefully something better than today. But today I am thankful for my blog despite it's lack of followers. It allows me to get things out and to be honest with myself since not many other people are reading.

OMG Dog Farts

No seriously I have looked it up online and I dont know if it is my breed of dog the food they eat or what but OMG my dog's fart and stink and I am starting to want to put them in the room and not let them out because they stink sitting next to me. I wonder if I feed them some perfume if it will smell rosey. Seriously just kidding people I know it would not work. But seriously these dogs stink and I just dont know what to do. Anyone have a dog with horrid gas. Shoot first I have kids and discuss gas and poop in their diapers and the fquency or infrquency of their poops and now I am a dog owner discussing their gas. What will become of me next. Just wait and see.

Not against teen motherhood

I am not an advocate for teenager's becoming Moms but as I sit and watch my crappy reality Tv on MTV. Yes it is my guilty pleasure. I see a commercial for a show called Teen Mom or something liek that. It is about the girls who were aired on the show 16 and pregnant last year. OMG the commercial urks me to pieces. The commercial says see how these Mom's share how hard it is to be a teen Mother (dont quote me as I am not quoting them), OMG are these people parents yes I had my first kid at 20 and guess what it was damn hard. My Mom had me at 26 as did her Mother have her at 26 and it was hard. Who the heck said being a Mother at any age is easy. I dont mean to sya become a teen Mother because you will face problems at any age so get it over and done with but honestly being a Mom is hard work. I finished school and became a Mom and then went back to school as a Mom and have been a stay at home Mom and a working Mom during my childrens lives. I love every single one of those moments. Being a teenage Mom is hard you have school and possibly work if you support your child yourself but seriously is being a Mom at any age easy. Ugh I try to understand there point but I definitely do not agree with MTV. I will let you know how much I disagree when the show starts December 8th because I promise you I will be glued to that reality hell.

How hard is it to be thankful

I hate to admit it but I am having a hard time figuring out things to eb thankful for. I mean the obvious a roof over my head, clothes on my back, a loving family, a supportive husband, food on the table, a car of my own to get around. There are so many things but yet every day I have such a difficult time thinking things up. I dont know if it is because I am one of those people who can't be put on the spot or if I just freeze when under pressure. Maybe I am ungrateful. Wouldnt be the first time I have heard that. I mean working for what you want and just getting everything and anything isn't unrateful in my eyes but maybe in some peoples it is. So what are you all thankful for and not the obvious please although I am sure everything is obvious and I just cant think about any of it at this moment.

Not me Monday

Head on ove rthe http://www.mycharmingkids.net/ to see what other things people did not do this week.

First of all I definitely did not yell at my children since they would not do home. Where would yelling get me.

I did not smoke cigarettes and even buy a pack when I was drinking and pledge to not smoke unless drinking, I mean what would be the point of quitting if I was going to give in while drinking.

I did not even go out drinking to be able to smoke while drinking.

I did not have the best time ever. Oh crap yeah I really did but oh well a Mom's got to let loose sometimes.

I did not go shopping for boots for myself because there was no way in heck that I was allowing my child to own a pair of boots more expensive than any other pair of boots I own. I mean how selfish would that be.

Most of all I did not forget about the scheudle totally wasting the clomid that I took this month. I mean we are trying to have a baby so taking meds to help and then not even sticking to schedule would just be pointless.

So those are my not me's for this past week. Head on over to http://www.mycharmingkids.net/ to check out more because I am sure there are plenty things us Mom did not do this week.

Thursday Thirteen

This week thirteen things I am thinking about...

1. Thanksgiving is 2 weeks away.
2. Christmas is 42 days away.
3. I am not done with Christmas shopping.
4. I dont have money for Christmas shopping.
5. I need sleep and badly
6. I should be sleeping now
7. I am watching the CMA's and they are awesome
8. I cant wait to move, hopefully that state will have Coutry music
9. Darius Ruckers' song Alright is amazing
10. I think it is my new favorite song.
11. Taylor Swift doesn't sing so well live,  I think I am glad I missed buying her concert tickets
12. The AMA's are coming up on November 22nd
13. New Moon comes out in 7 days, 1 hour and 52 minutes

Thirsty Thursday

Today has been another stressful day. I did not sleep well last night and the kids again drove me nuts. Big girl is on an extreme up or maybe an extreme down I dont know she is in a high but a bad mood high. Cussing and screaming and then crying and asking what is wrong she is thrilled again. Living with a child who has been diagnosed bi-polar is not easy. Some days I want to hang up my Mom label and run, or drink a lot. But I do neither. I am not a quitter, well other than smoking and a few things as a kid I refuse to quit. I am her Mother and I am going to fight her fight but along the way I am getting tired, beaten up physically and emotionally and just crying for no reason at all. It causes stress in our home and it causes stress at school. Poor Big Girl has turned into someone we dont know. I just pray for some help and sometime soon. In a bit over a month she has an appointment with a specialist and I pray for my own sanity for Big Girl to get the help she needs. Maybe it is simple maybe it is not, but I as her Mother refuse to give up and will fight this fight with her. I am thirsty for the cure, help, and the means to help her. I love her more than words and hate to see her go through this, but I know I will forever be by her side.

Working Wednesday

Actually just the opposite the kids are off for veterans's day and let me tell you it has been a bad day. I truly hope tomorrow is better. The dryer smell like fire (wont be using that till we figure things out), the kids are whiny, fighty, cranky, ugh. Then hubby comes home from work 2 hours late without calling. Today is a bad day it just did not work for me.

Someone shoot me yesterday!

Today was one of those days. You know the one where you laugh when you should cry, you cry when you should laugh and you yell at everything and anything. You know what I am talking about? You mean you dont have those days. OK so it is true I am completely certifiable. I am just having one of those days. I cant get along with my daughter for anything. Yeah I said it we were both in our moods and we didnt agree on anything, other then she ws tired and cranky and needed sleep as did I. She is now sleeping, I on the other hand am awake blogging and watchiing my husband play this horrific game. But we wont get into that.

I had this type of day today because Christmas is coming and we are broke. Yes people I said it broke broke broke. I am usually broke but this year I am more broike then other years. I am lucky I have my family to help me and to make sure that the kids can enjoy the holiday. But I am in the mood remember. So I said screw the holidays let them see what we buy them a big fat nothing, or at least ot what they are asking for because we are broke. So my loving daughter says well if we see what you both buy us then we will get nothing because we are poor.

Darn kid, poor. We pay way to much for rent, pay to have the kids in a good school, pay car insurance and a bank note on another car, among numerous other bills. We have cable and not some cheap type either. We have three laptops and xbox and wii and the list goes on but yes big girl we are poor. Ugh would I love to show her what poor really is. I make dinner nightly and the never need for anything. Want for things always but then again what kid doesnt.

So my question is in this economy where everyone seem to be having money troubles what is a person to do for the holidays. The holidays are about family and friends and love and gathering and the holiday spirit. Do thse kids not get this. Is this our fault as parents? Is it the economy which is just making us fall back on the holidays are for gathering and loving and not buying. I mean when all we see in every store, mall, ad and commercial is sale for the holidays what is a person to do???

Not My Child Monday!

I decided to join in this week on not MY child Monday! Why not my child because this week my children did a few things that make me say. Nope not MY child. So go on over to MckMama and join in on the fun of not My child Monday and not ME Monday!

So this week I did not have to fight with my Big Boy because he did not refuse to take a shower. He loves getting cleaned and never would he fool me into thinking he was taking a shower and in actuality he was to busy playing with his cars. Proof was when I smelled him. Thanks kid no you do not stink and at 7 years old I do not need to bathe you since you clean yourself so well.

This week my daughter did not come home with passing grades after not studying, but yet when she study's she fails. I dont get it but my negligence was a good thing this week. My failure was her passing grade. How awesome is that?!?

I dont know whether to brag about it or run and hide for forgetting to study but yet it got my Big Girl to pass so yeah Big Girl keep up the good work.

Groundhog Day

Do you ever feel like your life is one big Groundhog day? The only thing that changes from week to week is my hubby's work schedule, other then that we do the same things weekly. It is one great big routine. I love my routine's and all but lately I feel like my routine is boring. Soooo I am adding more fun time into my routine, which includes video games. Yes I am now trying to become one of those parents that actually enjoy video games with the kids. I also enjoy family game nights with board games. Sadly though we dont have many board games because we tend to get bored by them. Monopoly takes to long and other's just dont seem as much fun. So what video games and board games do you enjoy with your family? Just curious I mean with the holidays coming up I need to get some ideas and board games and video games are about all this familie's budget can afford.

MHR Friday

So I cant give credit because I blanked and can not find Katy-Lin's blog so if anyone has a link please share it with me. I miss her. But she inspired me a long time ago to make a post every Friday about why my husband rocks and here I am trying to do it yet again every week.

This week my husband rocks because he volunteered to help coach Big Boy's basketball team. Hubby does not play basketball, he also does not watch it, he probably will need some help getting started but he is trying and he brought Quin to basketball with Cas by his side as I slept the morning away. This weekend I will try to be a rocking wife and wake up to support my boys. Love you hubby YOU ROCK!

Thirteen Thursday

So looking back on my blog I see I used to do a thirteen Thursday where I wrote thirteen things I was thinking about. That is easy today.... So here goes.

1. Thanksgiving is in 3 weeks.
2. School is very hard when you are a parent and no I dont mean school for myself that was incredibly easy.
3. I need to get my license and soon.
4. I want to move so bad it hurts but sadly as the time gets closer I feel more and more down as though I am not going anyplace anytime soon.
5. I am a total reality TV addict.
6. I can't sit and watch a show anymore because my computer consumes me as soon as my children go to sleep.
7. I am scared of the dark and I am not afraid to admit it.
8. I also know I will not go to bed without my husband being home which stinks because hw rosks o late. After not going to bed till 5a.m. this morning I want to go to bed earlier tonight and it is not happening.
9. I need to get back into my book because I enjoyed reading it but obviously not to much because i put it down a couple of weeks ago and have not picked it up since.
10. I hate walkng and am dreading walking to get Cas from school tomorrow. Her bookbag and drums weigh more than I do.
11. I miss my Mom, so lady hurry up and get home already.
12. I cant wait for Steve to be off Saturday not that I have anything planned but I like having him home.
13. I am taking the Clomid for the first month and am hoping something happens if not then we continue to try. We shall see, maybe right now it is just not in God's plan.

Thankful

Today I have nothing to say. Nothing fun to write about. Nothing at all. So I will just be greatful and happy for the things I am "Thankful" for today.

1. I am thankful my Mom's boyfriend (who I get along with wonderfully when needed and not any other time then that) drove me to and from dance so Quin wouldn't miss a clas.
2. I am thankful that everything went off without a hitch and we did not argue over anything. Although there was a few awkward silences.
3. I am thankful I have legs so tomorrow I can walk to go get Cas from school which is quite a few blocks away.
4. I am thankful for having two cars even when one is not in funtioning order because the times they both work life is wonderful.
5. I am thankful to have a mechanic who is fixing said car so I will not have to rely on other's to get my kids where they need to go.
6. I am thankful the day is over because Big Girl was some kind of cranky, maybe a monster, maybe possessed, maybe PMS'ing or maybe just a girl.
7. I am thankful that when we got home both kids showered, Big girl finished homework, Big boy played and listened, they both ate and before long both were sleeping soundly.
8. I am thankful for my marshmallows and hot chocolate and my cool whistling tea pot/kettle thingy.
9. I am thankful it did not wake the kids.
10. I am thankful for TV and DVR so even when said kids are not sleeping when I need them to I can still watch my shows, and fast foward through commercials what could be better than that??
11. I am thankful for having a computer so I can blog and remind myself there are so many things to be thankful for.
12. I am thankful for the air I breathe.
13. I am thankful for the clothes on my back.
14. I am thankful for the food in my home.
15. I am thankful for my life as insane, hectic, mind boggling and just insane as it is daily, because I get to live it day by day with my family by my side every step of the way.

Halloween

We treated till out feet were swollen. we then went out with friends and had a fun adult night. I love Halloween it is always so much fun. Sadly I do not have any pictures of myself all dressed up but I was dressed up and I had a blast.